(73) Another Fucking School Rant

I can't say that I didn't try to study for Astro, and I can't say that I care anymore. I know its a basic science course and all, but its still above my head. Probably because the teaching methods of the instructor. I've certainly tried, but I can't teach myself all the material from the textbook. That's where you come in, Mr. Astroman. Though it's unfortunate you believe that we should divide into groups everyday and teach it to ourselves while you give us all the answers, it doesn't work and I'm not the only one failing.

I didn't do well on my Japanese final either, but I certainly don't blame myself.

As a matter of fact, I don't think I should blame myself at all for this awful semester. I had terrible teachers. I must say I do have hope for my future with the Journalism department, because my two Journalism teachers were fantastic.

But Astro, Econ, and to my complete dismay, Japanese, have seemingly succeeded in destroying any motivation I've ever had for school. I learned more about science and the universe from a 2 hour documentary on Discovery than a whole semester in Astronomy 100.

Regardless of how religiously the teacher believes that students are the ones who don't care, its the teacher who has the biggest impact on grades. On two occasions, I've had mass emails sent out to me that encourage students to drop the class if they're failing. I guess its a good thing and a bad thing, bit when multiple students claim to have sent emails asking for help with no response, it sure goes to show who the careless one is. Other times, that help is nothing more than a lecture about all your weaknesses.
I've never been so uptight about school before, and I hate talking about it so much. But I'm on the edge of failing two of my core-classes, and as for the rest I've so far scored straight C's. I've never done this poorly before, especially since my mom so proud of me for doing well at Prairie State when I was getting over 3.0 GPA for two semesters; hell, she even gave me money! And even though I love hating on P. State, the truth is, the work wasn't that much different than here. That's what driving me crazy, I was doing so well last time, and now I'm doing terrible.

I managed to squeeze an appointment in with my adviser tomorrow, which I will kill myself if I miss somehow. So far he seems to be unhelpful, but I'll see what I can get out of him to try and lift all this weight off of me. I need some serious guidance.